camped at the library for like 5 hours yesterday.. and yup. i got my hornet's nest!! but yet to read though :)
chiong finish my cross stitch the last two nights :)
went to csi the experience today! thanks* cass, lin and kathy mei for the company!! had fun XD
morning jog with cass too. FINALLY!!! haha initially was supposed to be $20 but then the girl charged me.. $16.80 wonder why. haha :P
though can use the root finder.. via calculator, but the stupid hence.. sigh.. need to work more. luckily i didn't take up the offer of giving tuition to sec 3s! phew. haha :)
tmr's the interview.. kind of nervous.. aww.. its like i don't know if i'll be able to get in.. their expectations.. the dress code. MAKE-UP noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
i really hope that i have no need to.. i'm only promoting specs.. don't need the fanciful blusher and stuff right?? pls don't.. oh man i've yet to write down the stuff i plan to ask instead.. :X.. too engrossed in the maths ques i wanted to solve. finally did. but feel kind of dumb. sian..
crime scene 4 just now took out a lot of my time, trying to analyse the clues and finally submitted it online. haha me and kathy mei pondered over it for a while too.
lastly.. its kind of ironic i feel.. that i'll still keep looking even though i know its gone..
haha.. weird. maybe it has become a habit.. cause i used to be there.. but. now though i know it isn't. i'll still go through it, scroll through it. or check that maybe just maybe you know. but nah. haha. it wouldn't happen i suppose. i might as well live just as it is. i'm kind of doing fine. amidst the random thoughts drifting of into thin air.. and the occasional scares when i see something/someone familiar or resemblance. its funny how i still think of the funny scenarios that would not happen in real life. hypothetical. withdrawal symptoms? maybe. i don't know. i just got to live life like that i guess. i mean, what can i do? of course.. thought of nice solutions like digging out my heart or swabbing my brain with alcohol. haha. but. not feasbile. then there's the physical pain, where i always see people do on tv. cutting their wrist with a pen knife -.- never in my life would i committ such an act on my poor wrists. so don't worry. but.. well. i have occasional cuts here and there.. the pain is bearable. i guess?? maybe cause i'm used to it. i sound.. insane i know but don't worry. i'll be fine. haha. afterall. i have to be :)
living life as it is.
=do something right=
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