'i think i'm going to cry' those were the thoughts when i sat down in my seat with only my cetificate, not plaque. the higher the hopes of getting something, the harder you'll fall when you don't get it. why? am i not as campable as them? did i not put in as much affort as them? why? why didn't i ge tthe plague. that were my very thoughts. i hated it. i was disappointed with myself. why do i not get recognition for what i have done? i did well... didn't i? then why didn't i get it? its like the same as the chinese compo competition. i got in 3rd for the second time, but nooo... all that they want to publish in the book is the 1st and 2nd prize. the 3rd will just step back. why? is it that unfair? hmm... was wallowing in self-depression the whole day of school. sorry guys for my unruly behaviour. i know i was not my usual self. really sorry. but i guess this taught me a lesson:
the night before, i was reading my daily devotion and it so happen to say this:
What you have in the natural realm is as nothing compared to what you receive in the spiritual realm.i guess its true. men tend to believe and feel that they have reached the ultimate success when they receive a token or plague(so as to say) for recognition. even if God promised us riches more then ten thousand kings and happiness that overflow more then a million vessels, men still fall into temptation. we cannot see the goodness that God left for us, hence we only believe what we see. this whole plaque thing made me realise this: that God has a plan for us. i know that we can trust him, even though i cannot see the things that he has promise/prepared for us. but traust and faith is all we need.
lastly, i want to thanks people who have made the effort to cheer me up: man wei, nichole(xiong xiong), zhen yuan, joan, izwan and murni(thanks* guys:P), ee lin ( although she's been used to my temper:P) rahmah. thanks* love you guys. muacks!!!!!
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