Nostalgia

i'm back...
jc ife has been quite hetic. new environment, new faces, new teachers, new style of learning. urgh.. plus new stomach flu came to haunt me. i found out that i MISS HOLIDAY...
miss the times when i can wake up super late without a care in the world, miss the moments of watching dvds over and over again, miss going out alone and hunting for books. i miss them all!!!
now, when i'm in jc, the stress gets to me faster. maybe its the hormones, maybe its the new environment, maybe my adaptability isn't that good after all. i don't know. but i hate this feeling. the fear of the unknown is the worst fear ever for me, besides fear of water.
fear about the class i'm going to, i'll not have any friends. fear about the oreintation camp that my stoamch will act up again. my muscles are so tensed that i feel numb inside. its strange. the fear of water keeps getting to me. like i'm drowning even though i'm walking on dry land. no one can help me but GOD. i need to cry out for help, or do i need to see a shrink, i do not know. but i seriously need help. i really hope that the fears will end by the end of next week-that's like after orientation camp. it'll calm down a little when i get to know my class. i hope so.. i really hope so...
try not to think about it. try not to. but is it working? i guess not. help me LORD!!
my routine has been interrupted. help... i really don't know what to do.. i guess i'll have the pray more, jia you, and worry less. come on, i can do it!!

faith is confidence in GOD's failthfulness, towards an unknown future, in an uncertain world.

GOD BLESS!!!!!!!!!-i need all the blessings i can get

=do something right=
i must conquer my hormones!!