But if its from you I dont mind hurting..my perfect nightmare

(f.y.i: my internet crashed 3 times just to post this post!! witw! totally.)

Advance wish to DEAREST CASSANDRA KOH whose birthday falls on 22ND DECEMBER :)


HAPPY BIRTHDAY! STAY WACKY!

i'm sorry my dear blog. everytime i want to post something.. i get distracted by fb. oki this time, i've closed my fb tab just for you :) hehe. see so nice right. haha. nope i'm not crazy haha :P

anyways, i learnt a skill today!!!

learning on the job.. hmmm isn't that what everybody does? nope! i beg to differ. its a skill that i only managed to acquire today!!and (pause for 5 mins to go to youtube)

shoot man!! sorry blog. haha hold on for a moment :)

oki. back. haha

learning on a job. high level oki!!!! don't play play. haha singlish >.< but its true. its an essential skill that one will have only when you really experience it :) haha cause the temp girl didn't teach me everything. i had to figure out stuff for myself. so yeah. found it quite cool :)

nice :) printed certs haha got it uber right this time. hopefully i've done a good job. not very well with certnet though :( too many things to remember plus once its finalised, i cannot go back to re-edit it :X i did something wrong yesterday :( sad...

anyways, this morning, i saw RAYAN TAN YAN RUI!! oh my!!! he was wearing this cool checkered shirt and black pants his voice was.. woah. haha he said 'hi clarissa' in that voice. haha boy has he grown up. and no, i do not have a crush on him. just that its nice to see a primary sch friend once in a while :) to see how much they've grown.. or change--hinting to myself -.- face totally never change.. act his face also never change haha. :P so cool!!!!made me smile on my way to work haha.

working in SGS with jia hui!!!! but she's like on leave for two days??!! so lonely in the office. haha sometimes cannot wait for 6pm to come. i know i'm bad. but at least i learnt something today. the boss, mr mark chua needs me to become a loan shark, asking companies to pay up. for either their iso 9001:2008 or ohsas 8001:2007 or their haccp or GDMPS cert haha. woah i sound kind of professional.. yeah. cover letter. IA or REN or CHG or acknowledgement? haha :) but certnet is giving me problems hmm..nevermind. will try again tmr. haha.

i can do this!! haha:) experience counts not the pay :D after this job.. i'll hop to another one.. wonder what lee hui has to offer haha hopefully it'll be something good. hehe :)

oh oh!! forgot to add!! xiao di's back today!!! yays!! mei is coming back tmr!! woots!! and gor.. cc and zy totally made my day haha one through fb, one through sms :) thanks* awesome people! of course cass and veron yupyup :) jia yu, for accompanying me at work. talked to mdp today so was oki :) haha. yupyup. AWESOME PEOPLE! :) janice..then there rahmah.. the list goes on.. haha :P (mdp=my dear piggy)

Perfect Nightmare-Shontelle

Sometimes we fight
Sometimes I cry
Why dont I just tell him goodbye
Sometimes I should but
Sometimes I dont
Build up the strength to say that its wrong
Sometimes I hate sometimes I love
Sometimes I hurt
Sometimes I dont
Sometimes I wait for him to change
But its okay I just got to pay (yeah)

And I dont ever wanna leave em' alone
They say i'm brain washed but im in love with this man (yeahhh)

Keep tellin myself that its not worth it
I already know I dont deserve it
But if its from you I dont mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream

No way , no way , no way ,no way , no way , no way , no way
But if its from you I dont mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare (perfect nightmare)

Sometimes I keep it cool
Sometimes I let 'em know
Sometimes I even pack my bags to walk out the door
Sometimes I feel safe
Sometimes I really dont
Sometimes I promise that im ready to let 'em gooo

But I don't ever wanna leave 'em alone
They say im brain washedbut im in love with this man (ooooh)

Keep tellin myself that its not worth it
I already know I dont deserve it
But if its from you I dont mind hurtingt
He is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way , no way , no way ,no way , no way , no way , no way but if its from you I dont mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare (perfect nightmare)

Hopin' hes changing but im scared hes not
Cant see a way to leave him he open'd my eyes
and i..
Keep tellin myself that its not worth it
I already know I dont deserve it
But if its from you I dont mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream

Keep tellin myself that its not worth it
I already know I dont deserve it
But if its from you I dont mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream

pretty much sums up my situation doesn't it haha :) so yeah.. i guess..

been having a lot of songs playing out in my head and almost everyone of them fits my scenario. in addition, i have songs for like.. every moment i guess haha :) hmm.. i guess that's all.

i'll keep smiling for you guys. will be fine. always am. always will. cause at the end of the day. i'll still be the clarissa you guys know :) but stronger :P

=do something right=                                                            you bring the rain... will i see my rainbow/shinshine after it?