dumb cheerful girl

another 2 and a half hours..... nervous? you betcha.. i mean come on.. this is not something i'm good in. talking maybe yes.. answering questions.. crappily maybe. but.. politically correct answers? hmm.. that's a challenge. hmm.. miss lee and jin says to be yourself. veron says to show sincerity *ting ting* haha boss say. just answer what they ask. haha. if they ask: what is the most amazing discovery you've ever come across haha you know what happened yesterday?? i logged onto fb via boss' iphone to check msgs. then i logged out. afterwhich, boss logged back into his acc. the profile is his, the news feed is mine!!!!!! wah i burst out laughing. seriously. ah rome was sick yesterday so... only let boss man and me. haha uber funny. he let me play chop chop ninja on his iphone. then i ask him to help me. haha hilarious. i laughed till i got biscuit crumbs on his sweater. sorry boss!! but boss was nice. he treat me to rocher tau huay!!! everyone is very nice to me!! bliss~~ ah..... ah rome will treat me drinks and give me advice. good one out of the blue.. funny ones if you ask him. haha =P but really. enjoy working there.. though i need to scout for an admin job soon. oh well. sort of patched with bunny yesterday. lol.. thanks* for the effort girl. i really appreciate it!! :) i think my relations are going quite well. jia you! keep it up. i don't want to bother about those who hurt me and stuff. its quite tiring to keep a tab on them. i'll be this dumb cheerful girl. if they want to hurt me then let them hurt haha xD. i don't mind. really!!!
this moring was self-rationalising again. lo and behold. more or less got enlightened.... even though its still a little hard. but  i'm working on it!! well.. thanks to the face appearing 3 times in my sleep last night. so scary. jolted up 3 times.. nightmare man!!! haha but oki manage to get back to sleep and shove that face out.. woowee~~ haha.
sometimes i do think that i'm evil. but nevertheless. i wish well for everyone... even though some people may say otherwise.. i don't know. its still too early to tell and now we're on different level. to cc gor: i'll not lose haha.  1 more day and then YESAR!! haha. score man. it would be so easy to win from now. haha :) bleah.
i did something yesterday.. and i wonder if i did the right thing.. maybe it was in a fit of the moment.. that i was kind of affected. but i think that maybe i did the right thing.. sometimes i do feel like i'm the only person trying to make this friendship work. but now. i know everyone puts in effort. and i should recognise them for that. so yeah... i don't want to say much. i just want to let everyone know that i treasure all my friendships.. i really appreciate you guys. even though i may not have a very good personality. i'm not always there for you guys. but if you need help please ask. i'm not super sensitive and i believe in one's own strength. so if you need me please use a loud hailer. haha.
don't think anything drastic is going to happen soon. maybe just grappling with uni admissions.. but i know i shouldn't worry. like what ivy said. why worry about something that you cannot control? just do my best and smile. keep smiling. i got a feeling that i'm closer to my goal of being a dumb cheerful girl. haha :) dumb jiu dumb. what's there to be afraid of?
lesson of the day: happiness is a skill. you need to learn to be thankful for the things you have, instead of harping on the things you don't.
if you got heart and soul, you can rock and roll!~~~~~

i learnt a lot from different teachers last year and this year. though some teachers were not that good, but i still manage to grasp the gist, and it wasn't an easy feat. though i have no idea what challenges might come. but i know that i'll face it with a braced-faced smile.


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