It has been eons of years since i've last blogged. the previous post was dated 5th oct. i know i have been busy. in addition, i am guilty of being bias to other websites such as YouTube and Kshownow. You cannot really blame me as my love for kpop has deepened... over the past few months. after giving it much thought, i know that practically no one reads my blog now, so i would most probably turn it into something of my own interest. i would resume my love for writing nevertheless, but maybe more on issues, feelings and thought.
today, i would like to start with this tiny little thought i have been having lately. i realized that humans.. are selfish. really selfish creatures. as much as i would like to 'complain' about others, but then i would glorifying myself in that sense, and as you know nobody is perfect, and i do not want to be a hypocrite. thus i am guilty for being selfish too. especially with my thoughts. the thoughts of always 'me first' or 'what do i stand to gain from this' or ' hopefully he is not going to win' etc. these thoughts will often or not enter my mind. it just cannot be helped. but why is that so? are we really built and programmed in this way? is our thirst for survival really that strong? what about people like Gandhi, or Mother Teresa? did these thoughts crossed their minds too?
But i have to agree, that it is tiring to always be accommodating. I have tried it before, many a times. People don't notice those, always taking it for granted. that is just how the world works. you never really know what people think. you just need to give something like 'true faith' this faith is different from your religion's faith. this faith is the trust you give to someone who has the power to hurt you, but you believe that they won't. faith, trust, believe. easier said than done. but i suppose that's what we do everyday. Of course the law does help. and there is something called conscience in us, but would the world be better if we manage to do away just these selfish thoughts?
Instead of 'I wish that she would not do as well as me in this test, hope that she cannot remember as much and spoil the curve' why can't it be 'i should study harder and hope for the best for both of us as we all did our best and that is what matters'. we need something to anchor on. something positive, life is not always about being on top. That's where my religion comes in. I have faith that God has laid out a path for me. Sometimes the road gets weary and i slacken, but i will always remember Mark 11:22 Have faith in the LORD. everything will be fine. :) I guess i have to learn how to keep the selfish thoughts away and look at life in a new perspective. You cannot change how others think, but you can certainly change your own mindset. Even though the world might still be filled with many people having selfish thoughts, but having the ability to control them is a gift as well. If you really cannot take it, talk to someone, like i always do. I feel like a bad person sometimes. but it is a good way to get rid of selfish thought although it is just temporary.at the end of the day, you'd be able to accomplish sometimes.
Hwaiting! God Bless!
=do something right=
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