Korea 55

Day 55

Walking along the path to church, i suddenly have this realization that i do not know what i want to do with my life anymore. :/ its like i lost my dream, my sense of direction. i have no idea what am i studying for. i am not good in studying. i am considered an average student who manage to get where i am by the grace of God and maybe if i put in effort, i can squeeze into the quarter of the second class upper. What happened to my dream of first class? why am i surfing the net more than paying attention to VDJ recombination  processes. Sometimes i feel really blessed that God didn't give up on me no matter how far i've strayed from him. I guess by making the decision to come to Korea, its like embarking on a journey to find myself. Even though in my 20 coming to 21 years of my life, i have no idea what are my gifts. The jack of all trades but the master of none. What my fortes are, what i want to accomplish in life. I like to talk, about random stuff, i am good with trivia. But all these are not useful in life. I love reading fiction, and so? Sometimes i feel lost, i need to get a sense of direction. Since i have chosen Biological Sciences, there must be a reason why right? i got a feeling that i am just following on and walking this path through blind faith. Just faith that tmr, everything will be all right. i can do this. at the end i will find my purpose in life. the purpose and interest of my life that would make my life much more meaningful than it already is. Maybe this is just the beginning of my journey to self-realization. Even though its late but i believe God has a purpose for choosing this time for me. 20. before i step promptly into adult hood in the later half of the year. 20. the first two which marks the end of being an adolescent. 20.

Just had a really good lunch buffet as someone at KIC got married and we were all invited to attend the lunch after worship haha Really thankful that God healed me so that my stomach and mouth can enjoy all the glorious food laid out. There were really a lot, and i mean A LOT of food. Traditional Koreans ones to International Food like Kebab. Yummy :) Sunday's lunch has always been so blessed :D Thank God!

The question that has been on my mind day and night.. bungee or not. one moment i feel like doing it, the other.... maybe its not such a good idea. Mummy said no issues with Christian being able/not able to jump, its just a matter of personal safety and risking of your health. Hmm.... but if its once in a lifetime. i don't know. i still have 1 more month to think about it. maybe till then i still haven't get myself decided. But now i need to focus. Immunology here i come!!

Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass. And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgement as the noonday. Psalms 37:5-6
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