Curtain Call

10 Years in LOL

7 as a leader. Changing cell almost every single year.

I almost wanted to give up this year. In June, call it quits. 6.5 years suit me just fine.

But thank God I didn't. Thank God Ps Weilin said no. 

Its not just about making it from 6.5 to 7, but its really staying through though its difficult.

Choosing to stay though it eats me up sometimes, and no matter how tiring and out of place I feel.

Perhaps its not the HIGH I expected to end on, full of vigor and victory.

Its the completeness, the battles fought and just choosing to turn up.

Of course receiving the love the everyone has given, in their own way. I may not be part of any inner circles, but I have an individual relationship with everyone. 

Thankful for Ps Weilin, for journeying through with me. Helping me to see through my emotions and (sort of) making the call for me.

I really hope that in these short few years, like what Rev Chris shared today, God is looking down and He is well pleased :) 

Promise. Excited. Carrier. Mother. Fragrance. Fulfilled, Available, Trust (FAT). Pearl. Guide. 

These were the words given from the leaders to me. Of course, the other prayers of faith, spirit and sticking through with God for the new season ahead. 

Its really been a ride. But I will never trade it with anything else. God you know best and thank you for using this broken vessel to do your great work.

My thank you speech. Putting it here for memory:

"I would like to give all glory and praise to God for the past 7 years. 

The journey wasn't an easy one, but I thank Him for His sustenance. Sometimes I wonder what He saw in me to be given the privilege of this role. I'm just an average girl, prideful, sometimes moody, sometimes a bundle of nerves.

But it is precisely because of this, that I know that this journey would not have been possible without Him. It's really not my strength, but God's. 

This year has been one of the toughest years, battling health issues, family stuff, feelings of loneliness and emotions. Really struggled through every month. There were times where I just wanted to give up. All I can say is, God is good. That even in the last part of this season, He has saw me through. 

Thank you all for Serving alongside me. Some we came into leadership together. Some I watched you transit from students to adults and some are even serving as leaders! Thanks for accepting me and trying to involve me, though we have different interests. You all have impacted me one way or the other and made an impression in my life. 

I've prepared a little gift for each of you. The gift is secondary, just wanted to share the fondest memory I've had with each of you."

Glory to God!

p.s. I actually had this like... message that was full of resentment that I wanted to share to the team. But thankful for Ps Weilin AGAIN!! haha she told me it was not edifying. This Dec holidays, I got time to digest and process my feelings and its not that bad haha thank you God for putting godly people in my life as well. 

guess this is going to be the last post of 2025. excited for 2026 :)

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