people are getting more and more unresonable. so angry today grrr!!(angry face)

ok breathe in, breathe out phew.. first, the world has more than 1 billion shouting in vulgarities everyday( from my calculations ) its really tiring to hear the same bad word used. its always the same cursing your father or mother, or shouting out ones private parts, blah blah, using damnation and monolanguages to say : whatever, i dont give da** (i don't care-except more 'emphasis' and vulgar)>.<

in addition, violence is also used.even in games ( shall not mention anything or anyone in order to protect the identity of victim and the guilty ones and i don't need to buy too many insureance) >.<'''

respect is the most basic thing someone can ask for. but if someone talks to you, and you just ignore him/her its not very nice. i believe that everyone has the right to talk and everyone should have the basic consideration to listen.

sigh.. today was practically pissed!!!! ahhh... what tpo shout the whole building down!!!! okok deep breath... deep breath..... (like pregnant haha) pray that the LORD will help me to erase all the hatred and understandings in my life today..

haha achievements: ran 2 rounds around school today without sch today (as usual) beat my last week's record : 12.54 beaten!!! 11.34 yeah!!!

worries: what to wear for arena trailer shoot!! ahh!!! bringing this whole stack of clothes for 'fitting' haha.. ok.. chill !! everything will be all right!!

woofwoof

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2 weeks of official schooling have passed....
what do i think of my progress? well... quite ok... various test have been given.. english, science.. and many more coming up.. haha.. well.. not much happened over this two weeks... only the arena styling.. haha.. my hair looks weird like a typhoon just ran through it. going to yf later tonight haha.. got a new phone and number duh... line fianlly!!! yee hah!!! haha..yupyup that's about it.. i think that i'll be changing my blogskin soon... still trying to find the right one!!! haha

woofwoof

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the word failure.. strucks me everytime, everyday. a maths, failure. the fear of becoming a failure. as i trod home by myself, i enter into the world of self-delusion. the world of 'what ifs' what if i fail, what if i cannot make it, what if.. what if....
seeing that other people do better than me... i mark myslef as a failure and strive to do better. but when its' time to reach the finishing line, i stop and hesitate. should i go for it? am i miss nice girl? will my friends leave me because i beat them down. will i be laboured the school's most unfriendly girl, popularity doesn't matter to me. but ironically, friends do matter to me.
failure determines everything, as i trod home by myself, i enter into the world of self-responsbility, blaming myself and solely myslef for my poor results. always not doing the best that i can. and falling sick at the most unappropriate times.
failure is like a mark you cannot wash offf no matter how much merits you have. they say to look at the future and not cling on to the past. but they want us to learn from our past mistakes...
failure - to fail.. fail .. fail.. as i trod home by myself, i enter into the world of self-failure, i world i invented myself. the world where people who fail live.. i yearn to break free form this world, i yearn to run form this world, i earn to destroy this world and cast it into the deepest fire of hells.
failure, i want this word to forever vanish form my dictionary
failure, i want to mark to stop tarnishing my skin
failure, this word to not exist at all.

i pray that God will help, lead and guide me and will take my worries into consideration and allow me to spend me time wisely through this year,

woofwoof

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its good bye 2007 and hello 2008

Clarisssa reporting LIVE from 6/1/08!!
wow.. last year ended with a blast.. why do i say that well.... haha let's just say i won't step into pizza hut ever again.. well at least for now... waited for 5 mins for a personal pan pizza! grrr and that de zhong kept spamming my blog. i'm nice not to spam yours. haha

orientatipon 08 was OOOOOKKKAAAAAYY>>>>i guess.. not many of the sec 1 s were enthusiastic... yup had a hard time controlling them..
anyways, tmr is the start of the term (officially for me) and i already have 2 teasts coming up!!! ahhhh.. horror!!! oki this year i need to work hard.. sso i'll be laying off the laptop.. yup yup... haha

hmm... well... hope that my nose will be a good one this year, not much flu. uh huh.. oki that's for all NEW seating arrangement tmr!!! ahhhhhhhh oh well.. miss murni!!!! haha oki that's all for today. yup yup

woofwoof

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