another rocky week

another rocky week. again.

though the best day was wednesday, cause i ge tto go out with mum-FINALLY!
got taylor swift's platinum edition cd of 'fearless'+ clothes. haha been a long time since i've sort of replenished my wardrobe. bought some new outfits.. cheap and the bes thting...-----almost all are free-of-charge!!! thanks to the causeway point vouchers we got haha.

anyways, still struggling with the mixed emotions i have lately. comprising of confusion, pain, a bit of envy and basically just angry with myself. haha its like. "why can't i control my own emotions." i've been telling myself the same line over and over again "aviodance is a necessary evil" and an additional one: 'get real, move on' haha well.. its kind of working cause i don't feel that much pain already. though sometimes i still get confuse.
this blog is so useful for me to just type and rant on and on about emotions, when half the time, my readers may not know what i'mtalking about.

just want to tell people out there if you're as confused as me, its good to take a time off and just talk aloud to yourself, about youur worries and stuff.(do it in your room or a private and personal space when you're alone, or to a friend but ask he/she to be silent and just listen). after pouring it out to yourself, you'll find that actually things aren't that bad after all. in addition, sometimes you're the only one who has the answers to your worries/ troubles.

well... i'm kind of envious that some of my friends get to do stuff that i don't get to do. its like they have it all going their way, with additional opportunities. hmm.. well.. i guess that's reality.

when i was little i used to think about what talents i have and that even if i don't have a talent now, when i grow up, i'll realise what's my talent. however, now that i'm 17.. i still don't know my talent. hopefully God has a plan for me. haha i'm just a nobody, but i'm happy and glad to be a nobody! but sometimes when i look at my friends or the people around me. i cannot help but notice their god qualities their talents, then look at myself and wonder.. do i have any talents? haha well..  that's food for thought.

that's about all folks. i really hope things will get better cause its CHRISTMAS WEEK next week. plus i want to give out my presents with a HUGE SMILE. hopefully... it'll come back.. i pray earnestly. hopefully.

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