it's over

it's over-jesse mccartney

We've run out of words, we've run out of time
we've run out of reasons really why we're together
we both know it's over baby bottom line
it's best we don't even talk at all

don't call me even if i should cross your mind
hard enough i don't even need to hear your voice on my messages
let's just call it quits it's probably better
so if i'm not returning your calls its cause

cause i'm not coming back i'm closing the door
i use to be tripping over missing you but i'm not anymore
i got the picture phone baby your picture's gone
couldn't stand to see your smile everytime you dialed

cause its over,
girl, you know its over this time
so when you call i'm pressin seven
don't want to hear your messages messages
i'm trying to erase you from my mind

cause it's over
i swear girl its over this time
so don't keep calling, leaving messages
don't want to know where you've been
baby cause its over.

this song matches my emotions perfectly. haha. not that i'm in a relationship or anything. i'm too young to be in one anyways ^^. its just sometimes. the things people do.. make me feel this way.
just hope things get better, Almighty LORD please help me.

this paragraph is something that i use to remind myself lately:
Avoidance is a necessary evil,
even if it swallows you up,
it devours you,
throws you into confusion
even if you want it to stop,
even if its making you numb,
you still need it.

by telling myself that.. i'm trying to numb my thoughts.

lately.. some i;ve been revisiting some memories of the past mistakes that i've committed. as much as i want to erase them.. i can't . i don't know why i've thought of them after so long. but i hope i can bury it deep in my heart. i cannot tell anyone. cause i don't trust myself. i on;y trust God. i just want it all to  go away. to be erased. i want it to be over.

last few posts have been quite negative :( sadly. hopefully things will be better. towards a brighter future, a brighter tomorrow!

GOD LEAD AND GUID ME!

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