2 sides

'just promise me
you'll think of me
everytime you look up
and see a star in the sky'

my mind's a spin. a swirl. a whirl, a storm.
yet calm. serene. tranquil.

i always think of possibilities. the what ifs. the yes. the postives
yet the next minute would be filled with the negatives, the get-reals, the yea-like that would happen, the hopeless.

i don't want to keep thinking.
yet sometimes i still do.

i'll listen to songs that remind me of stuff.. i'll always note them down to post here
yet, i never do.

two sides. i always tell myself, two sides to everything. i'll always listen to both of them before i make any judgements. i have to be fair. so yeah.

actually. i really have no idea what i'm posting. when i bathe.. or on the train or waiting for bus. i'll always tell myself. oki clare later when you reach home maybe you would like to post about this.. about that.. then in the end. i never do. cause i'll keep thinking.. like is it suitable? post.. should i talk about this now? or maybe can hold on a little, pull back a little, wait a while, try it out... etc.etc. haha kind of like scheduling about my posts. its weird, but guess its how my brain functions.. when i'm in a relaxed circumstance.

currently still waiting for my mum to come home safely. >.< so late already. plus i think i'm falling sick, but nevermind, will be fine. haha ping!!!! i must really improve, if not feel very useless.. like everything also need my colleague to do. hmm. guess i need to read up more.. then keep trying. heat and heat. bend and bend then can reach their standard. like today, simple tranferring i was in jitters already. >.<

ooo. i can hear the lock turn, my mum's back :) haha
good, good. she's safe phew.. haha hmm..

so yeah, anyways, i really need to get concession!!! i don't care.. though i don't like lying to the lady at the counter.. that time ask if i'm studying.. i'm waiting for results... counted?? studying.. eh.. i think so? haha. so sorry, i really need the concession. going to try to get it tmr. haha but i don't want to be late:X going to chiong!! haha

hmm.. then.. eh.. was really shocked..today. that's all i can say. whether its true.. you meant it or not.maybe cause you saw it up. some say.. its pity. maybe.. i don't know. just.. think positive. i guess. tilt my world a bit, just like that..grrr... ilm!!

whatever, anyways.. when i was walking home today.. i thought to myself.. i should say congrats.
so congrats to you guys. cause.. there is nothing more i can say. but congrats.sometimes..i really cannot help myself but look. i really should stop it cause.. nothing. but for now.just let me... look at you from a dist. like last april..
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