Count On Me
If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see
I'll be the light to guide you
Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need
Chorus:
You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh
If you toss and you turn and you just can't fall asleep
I'll sing a song beside you
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Everyday I will remind you
Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need
(chorus)
You'll always have my shoulder when you cry
I'll never let go, never say goodbye
(chorus)
You can count on me 'cause I can count on you
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what separates us from animals.. i guess the answer is conscience.. its a really tricky issue. this conscience thing. without it, can we be classified as animals? or maybe even worst.. beasts?
i marvel at how people can do stuff without thinking about the consequences.
without even deliberating for a second... like would i cause harm? what happen? etc.
i really have no idea.. how he can i don't know? i try to believe the good in him.. i really tried.. like what i told buddy. but.. i don't know if there's a single speck of good in him. seriously.
watching my friend.... shivering in fear.. crying.. stuffing her fingers into her ears to block out the entire world just for that specific person.. its not worth it. i hate to see my friends go through pain when the rest of us can only stand there and watch helplessly. its like... i have no idea what to do.. what can we do? xiao di says..that its not we cannot help our friend in need. it is the circumstances that forbid us to do so. i do agree. after all.. we're dealing with some higher authority.. but please. can you have a tinge of conscience.. as homosapiens.. we need to reflect on what we have done. so please.. reflect. seriously. an apology would be good. but.. she needs to get over her trauma of you. everything. your voice, stench, shadow. everything. i believe that she can do so.. we all believe it. but please.. with your remainding time on earth.. can you. like.. go and reflect on what you're doing?? like.. treat tohers better. instead of just shouting your head off in front of others. yes we're scared. but we're no afraid. please... reflect.
i believe my friend would have the strength to pull through. we trust in you! have faith. we're all here for you.
ttytt. this is the 2nd time it happened right at my face. i really felt helpless. i really didn't know what i can do. its irritating like mad! i have no idea.. what i can do. i myself was shivering... not out of fear. but out of helplessness. :X seriously... i wanted to breakdown.. i know buddy told me yesterday that.. there's nothing we can do.. but still!!
i was awfully angry with myself yesterday when i found out about the problems my friends were facing.. i felt like i was neglecting them and kept wailing about my insecurities, my problems.. blah blah.. suddenly they seem so trivial. its like.. my issues are much easier to handle than them. what more can i say.. how can i complain to them.. how can i keep screaming 'help i'm hurt' when what they go through is more than me. i have seriously no idea what's the problem with me.. its like i'm so caught up in my affairs to think about them. my selfish ways... i have no idea.. sigh.. it's really bad of me.. buddy said diff people have diff problems.. some might find yours large and vice versa.. but they are still problems.. be it in minute amounts or large..
i really wanted to cry.. its like.. sigh.. sometimes.. i really hate myself.
yesterday morning.. helpless again cause heard some really unpleasant news.. felt that i could have done better yet i didn't.. but cannot be help.. what's done is done.. not sure if she's reading this.. but if you need anything.. pls sms me or call or anything. and stay away from that guy. seriously. so what if in sch he was oki.. i mean i know him personally and everything. but.. from what you told me.. he's not good. and in the end.. it was proven.. beast. i know he apologised.... but you're not the first victim.. sigh... i don't know what yuo can do... but.. as a friend. i can only be here for you.. so anything just msg or call me oki !!!
just now.. i felt like scolding some.. expletives... seriously.. till that extent.. wanted to tell buddy.. but.. then.. nevermind.. sigh.. i cannot keep relying on people. thanks* to weijin and xiao di to, and to those whom i said i was feeling mad.. but you guys don't know the reason.. thanks* anyways.. i wanted to seriously scold bl**** 3rd bus! its like.. the words were replaying in my mind.. right not.. i'm still very pi** off.. this is so vulgar. yucks!! urgh. i hate it.. wrath.. is one of the 7 deadly sins. >.< must learnt to control it. hmm... pls.. conscience and consequences!! reflect.. please.
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anyways, went back to jj yesterday night and today.
yesterday night was mainly just sss.. cause seniors won't allowed to join in night games -.-"
sss was all right.... at least get to lear a new song 'count on me' by bruno mars. :) nice.
then.... something happened.. which.. sigh.. don't want to talk about it. elaborated much.'
today met bunny, sunshine and honey bear for breakfast at jp.
ate long john.. seriously full!! $5.80 was worth it. haha. had big fish french toast. full!!
went back to sch to help out with tying water bombs!!!!!!!! woots~! gamers!! haha got wet as usual.. in the rain. with soap and everything.
sandals spoilt every before the telematch started!! thanks* gor for showing off your scouts prowness and tying it up using a raffia string :) haha at least i had makeshifts sandlas to play in.
oki.. the telematch was oki.. neutral shall no comment. but definitely missed the times when we were doing that... tying water bombs.. bombing each other. water hose a.k.a python! haha nice nice :) wet!! wet!! wet!!..
my index finger is still burning a little from tying all the bomb bags... and my hand still has that squeezing sensation.. its like... i'm still holding a bomb and bursting it in front of the campers :) my back still has that coolness to it. haha missed it.
went to help out with jj night deco.. sigh no extended stage.. :(
but nevermind make do. haha had fun.. all the songs were uber cool!!
i was high-fiving with the campers and singing and shouting and screaming at the top of my voice.. haven't learnt o shout with lungs yet :X haha all the hip songs!! fireworks!!! teenage dream!!! like a g6 -.- all the korean songs.. like hoot hoot hoot.. mystical... sorry sorry. haha everything not bad :) reminds me of my time. haha :P
then it was mass dance time.. haha chaotic!! didn't know the steps to candyman and manbo number 5.. totally smoked through both of them with my partner. lol.. happen to be the same partner as last year..jj night.. then mama was asking me to go in front.. then oki.. shift. haha . waka-waka wasn't that bad.. oh my darling was managable.
the best was still 5 colours in her hair!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :D haha nice!! it was awesome. haha
felt the hall tremble under all our standing and jumping.. synchro oki!! :) awesome!! just awesome.
though it was short... but then it ended the same way as yesterday night.. sigh.... jia you girl you can do it!!
it was fun.. my feet have the sandals mark.. sort of like sunburn of something haha but i'm a gamer.
was an scdcian. was a gamer. was a pc. always a jjcian. haha :) that's all..
now still a bit.... angry.. i don't know.. just ... wah!!!!!!!!!!! urgh.. go reflect people!!!
=do something right=
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