HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON ONG!!!! HAPPY HAPPY 19!!
my job hunt is still on!!!
i feel like sleeping man.. so weird.. its like.. i slept.. but i didn't sleep enough? or i didn't sleep well enough? or what haha. maybe on the train going to doze again -.- hmm..
saw the email.... i don't mind applying. temp pharmaceutical job. but.. would it be tough? like i'd only be the only applying? would it be 5.5 work week again?? i think yes. aiyo..
i really feel like applying.. calling leehui mummy and see if she has a job like that available for me. but i still got my current job. feel like hanging on till march... then... april.. i got holiday.. may, june, july, august.4months. argh.... that is if i get into uni.. sigh.. why..
this morning there's so many thoughts flowing into my head again.. ILM!
i think earliest i can start is end april or something.. woah.. something i read dread sometimes.. ILM! @.@
just pray and hope that God would be able to help me.
i don't mind doing phramaceutical stuff. or r & d.
i think i'm just overwhelmed bu so many things that aree happening around me... so many other options and stuff appearing in my life... i don't know.. suddenly i feel very lost.. (knew it!)
i know i got to take things one step at a time. heck.. slowly slowly.. impatient heart won't achieve anything. :X but still ah!!! i got to apply fast. maybe i should ask leehui mummy if she'll be at recruit till end of may or something i don't know.. hmm...
i know i should wait for results first... but then the month of march would be long gone.. then come april.. the tour takes up.. almost the entire month (groans) haha.. but i should enjoy myself.. i cannot believe i'm fretting here during holidays!! haha
act.. i want another job is also to cut down on my parent's burden... if i can support myself.. it'll be great. i think i should try paying for my braces myself.. i know it would be tough.but still need to try.
i need to calm down...
1) first just hang on to the job.. current one and learn.
2) hang on till after results. take a look at results, focus on application for courses
3) then decide what to do. pharmaceutical jobs application would be after results-looking
4) see if it negeotiable to just have 3/4 days helping out in the store.. need to ask elaine
-----that's pretty much the plan for march-------
then april... maybe after the trip then see if i can hold 2 jobs :) need to make myself busy anyways. yupyup. i think that's what i'll do. don't worry so much now.. wait til after results then say. i guess. that's the only thing i can do now?
btw, i need the experience too!!! after looking at how much my parents spend on the trip.. oh man.. i really don't feel like going.. but its like once in a lifetime.. + i'll take up more jobs to help in the financial load. yupyup. so i really need to stop spending. heck.. i'll eat economic rice everyday!! only $2.50-$4 then save the rest. oki set.
anyways.. i think i've grown immune to it.. but i won't know till everything's settle i guess.. for now.. i'm oki? haha like.. like that.. also cannot do anything.. but not sure why i'm so tired... physically related? so weird. haha it not like i exercised or what?? hmm.. weird huh?. i don't know.. i really don't know.. should i dread?.... i don't know what i'll do.. or what will happen.. wish that sometimes i can dig hole and bury myself up. or maybe... (touch wood) suffer from some concussion. i don't know.. maybe i'll suddenly wake up.. then i'm only like 16 years old?? everything was just a bad dream. haha
'sometimes is hurts so much that you find it hard to breath.. but that's how you survive.'
it comes everytime.got to get use to it girl! hopefully everything will work out all right...i really want good results.. at least able to make it into uni and choice course!!!!! come one man!! i did my best!!
=do something right=
i woke up again with thoughts of you in my head.. and butterflies in my stomach
'you're letting her think she had a chance and nothing is worse in the world than thinking you have a chance when you really don't'
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