get it right

i cannot say that i'm no disappointed.
disappointed that i'm unable to plan a decent event,
disappointed that i would not be able to wear that blazer to take a nice photo.
disappointed that i would be able to work with my friends.
this opportunity was a golden one. shining brightly in every single shade of gold you can imagine.

i gave it my best shot. i didn't give it up. but in the end, i fell.
its oki i guess. haha. though it got me to switch to inferior mode.

actually the person who got me thinking about this inferior thing was void... cause. i always had to try to sort of 'live up to his expectations' even though he already has a goddess in mind. i really had to fight hard just to make an impression. in the end, i fell to. and fell badly. wounded, hurt, limped. any word you can think of to describe injury. in addition, void's goddess was doing pretty well too.

ya, i can go on about all my setbacks and stuff, but hey, i really don't want to infuse my blog with all the negativity. i really got to get back up. yes, i may not be good but i'm not perfect. i don't have to please everyone.i just want to be myself. be sincere. be happy. that is the motto i live by. if you have a problem with me, just tell me straight, i don't mind construactive feedback. i really don't. but you need to give me a valid reason to change. haha yupyup :)

i really want to thank bestie for helping me lots. even though i'm not really in a good mood. still being very accomodating to tolerate me... but please don't be so nice to me next time. really. really. i don't want anything bad to happen to our friendship. by the means of bad.. its more of my problem.. since you're so simple-mind :p haha but yeah.

everything happens for a reason. so i should thank God that he had planned out his route for me... since i'm not meant to get my SPO co-opt, its oki :) hopefully the guy would be able to do a better job. even though i don't get to work with bestie and ni, just hope that i can help in other ways. still considering hon gen sub-comm.. sounds quite hiong but yeah.. hiong my 'hidden' middle name.i'm not fantastic, good or awesome, i just like the hiong feeling haha.

but i really want to thank GOD here for giving me supportive parents and great friend that even though my circle of friends is a few small ones, but we are tightlu-knitted which makes it even better. i don't mind making new friends as well though haha :) it's oki. really just want to thank everyone especially God, for guiding me :) yeah yeah. haha

ccas are going to start soon. i want to enjoy them.. hmm.. right now studies are kind of killing me, guess i need to work super hard. plus juggling 13 sept. ah!!!!! all i can say is bring it on!! haha

clare, you have to keep rocking!!! HWAITING!

=do something right=
did you change me?? i don't want to know.