Thoughts on January 2023

It's going to be almost a month since I've taken up cell leadership.

Honestly, could not have done it without the support of my two ALs, Alvin and Althea. They really made me feel at ease and they support me really well. I'm also enjoying the company of my cell members. Each unique in their own way, but somehow starting to gel together (I hope) haha. Main goal for now is really to stabilise the numbers before starting to include members in the planning stage. I still find it hard and am trying to find the balance between how much responsibility to give my members and even my ALs. 

I mean, I could always take the easy way out and delegate lol, but that's not really my style. I prefer to work and do it together with them. Even the parts that I don't really like. :/

Was a bit distracted yesterday during worship. We planned for Bible Games Night, and the number we were looking at was 4 per team. I was getting kind of nervous when we only had 3 members so far. Checked with MH wrt his brother and he said he will be late but on the way. A lot of thoughts were running through my head. Like, will it not be fun if there is too little people. Will I look like a failure if my cell numbers are low. Tried my best to switch my focus back to God, need many many reminders to self that as long as I did th best I could, really going to keave it all to God.

The message yesterday also spoke to me. 专一跟从. to follow only 1, only God with absolute obedience. Faith is not trusting without proof, but trusting without reservation. It was interesting how things worked out. Really thank God that the members who did not come did account to me. In addition, we were also facing some logistical issues for the games (no.of Bibles). But it turns out that the number of Bibles we managed to get was just enough for everyone. Having a small group also meant that everyone had more than enough time to have their turn. Thank God that we ended on time and it was not too rush. 

Time and time again I really experienced God's impeccable timing and I really think that is God's grace to me, every single day. January has been a whirlwind of activities and emotions. Feb, though a short month will start to get intense as well. I pray that I will continue to keep pace and not lose track, going too fast will cause me to run out of energy really really fast. Sometimes it feels like I have lots to follow up, especially wrt cell, but these things take time and to do it within the capacity that God has given me. Learn to time and again, trust in His time and be renews in His presence. Woo! With that, let's take on Feb! 

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