tell me

oki. i got what i came for. the wake up call.
i have no right to be jealous/mad/angry or what. so yeah..

i'm still appalled by how just a few words can drive my world upside down again. been working on it for ages.. yet.. just a few words.>.<
today.. close shave man. probably just my eyes playing tricks.

i don't know how long i can pull this off. what do you really want??
my distraction has been taking a toil on my eyes, even though its really good.
today i was at my haven.. surrounded by the things i love and some memories.. that's all. but its enough.. then on the way home >.< please..

just let me vent here for a while. bunny say i get affected too easily. i guess i really do.. some stuff.. maybe because i tend to overthink too much. i don't know.. right now i don't know where we stand. are we even on the same platform or i'm already at the edge and you're just waiting to push me off.

so if you're reading this, i really don't know what you're up to.. maybe i'm just talking to a wall here.. but please.. i really don't know where we stand now.. like what's your game? in addition, i don't think i'm ready for the ultimate test.. you should be fearless by now.. i'm easily replaceable no?? i don't know.. just let me.. sob things out for a while.

letting things out last last wed made me feel better. crying my eyes out, my lungs hurt, my heart hurt.. i don't know. just..

so what should i do now? heck? be angry? shocked? happy? why can't you tell me what to do? oh boy..

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ba'ad az ar tariki, roshani ast
after darkness there is light

you're never really in control, whatever you may think. just keep paddling and never fight the current because the current will always win.

when in doubt, keep paddling.

wait.look.notice

nothing is as it seems. you must learn to question everything. to wait before moving, to looking before stepping and to observe everything.

you are the prisoners of circumstance, of coincidence and chance

love is the water of life, drink deeply.

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