Time has certainly passed really fast and 2019 is almost over. Before I trudge into 2020, I wanted to document this down.
I spent some solitude time with God on Saturday, with Weilin and Vivian, at the Botanics Garden. It was short but definitely fruitful :) Really thank God for the much needed time spent with Him and he gave me two words that I am going to share with you guys here!
Weilin read Psalm 1 three times and we were off to our own places for our time with God. While I was meditating on the Psalm when God spoke to me through this verse
3 That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,
which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither—
whatever they do prospers.
- NIV version
When I was reading this verse, the words 'mustard seed' came to my mind.
The most common verse pertaining to these words are from Matthew 17:20. However, I felt that God might not be telling me about faith (only), so I went to look up what other verses are there in the Bible with the words 'mustard seed' in them and came across this verse instead
Mark 4:30-32 New International Version (NIV)
30 Again he said, “What shall we say the kingdom of God is like, or what parable shall we use to describe it? 31 It is like a mustard seed, which is the smallest of all seeds on earth. 32 Yet when planted, it grows and becomes the largest of all garden plants, with such big branches that the birds can perch in its shade.”
I felt really touched when I read this verse. I feel so insignificant at times and God knows.
It brought me back to the solitude time which I did during the leaders' retreat as well. We are all like little seeds. Different seeds give rise to different types of trees. This year, I felt like a seed being planted. It was dark, squirmy and when I wanted to move, I felt stretch in all different directions, like there was not enough space for me to grow. Maybe I am not the type of tree that bear fruits, but, like the mustard seed, I will be able to grow tall and provide shade for the birds, or anyone who needs rest. Weilin affirmed me by saying that I am like a pitstop for other people. They do not necessarily require feeding and input, but just a listening ear and a place to take a break before they continue. God is telling me to be the seed that He has created me to be, instead of trying to give rise to a tree that my seed is not made for.
Next year will be a time for me to sprout. At the gardens, God allowed me to chance upon a little shoot that came out from 'barren ground' or rather the ground around it was covered with dead leaves. The colour was so brown that this little green sprout was too eye-catching to be missed. 2020 will be a year of sprouting, of continuing the process of growing into the tree that provides shade, of being the tree that God wants me to be. I believe that God is a good gardener and though the process of exterminating weeds might be tough, it is all for the good of the sprout so that it will be able to grow well. I am excited for what 2020 brings. Many people are currently reflecting on how 2019 was, but I choose to look forward. Come what may 2020, I am sure God will be in control. Happy Blessed New Year everyone!
*verses are taken from biblegateway.com
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