Last week passed like a breeze. Kickstarted my cell's DG on Saturday, caught Suzume on Sunday (I think it is one of the best shows out of the 3), started forward bound on Monday and was back to work on Tuesday. 

Ever since the forward bound challenge started, I have been trying to clock in at least 2km of walking distance per day. when I mean walking distance, I do not refer to clocking in even when I am walking to the toilet. But rather, walking as an activity (and attempt) to stay healthy. For example, on Tuesday, I chose to alight at Chinese Garden and walk home. The distance is not very long, but I am glad to have spend some time in nature, whilst clocking in my steps. Hence, every distance clocked on my Strava is real and purposeful. Since I cannot run (okay, I'm a won't run, not a can't run), I feel it is the least I can do. I don't want to be a burden to the team... and all of them are aiming for at least 74km in 37days. Hence my 2kn a day goal. 

We had LM on Thursday and I was sharing with Nic after it that it was a really fresh take on having u discuss and come to consensus on some topics, as we move forward as a leadership team. Of course I would like an instruction manual, telling me what exactly to do and to say, but then my brain would not used... and I think critical thinking is a crucial skill for any role that I am taking up. I'm probably just lazy at the same time. I also learn to look at the principle behind certain things. Knowing the principle would direct us in answering, questioning and choosing, Of course the human element of tactfulness and know how and when to say certain things still applies. Methods are dead by human thinking should not. 

Sidetrack a bit, I recently watched a Korean show on Netflix. I think my taste in Korean shows has changed a bit. I like slice of life ones - hospital playlist, or ones that touch on certain issues with good plot and character development - attorney woo. I think the two shows that I will currently recommend are: Search WWW and Under the Queen's Umbrella (most recent addition). 

The acting was great. But other than that, the show vividly showcased the theme of mother's love. The lengths that a mother will go through just for her son to succeed. It might not be the orthodox way, some might take the unorthodox way, but the actions fundamentally come from wanting the best for their son (and partially their own greed and the glory they will receive if their son becomes the Crown Prince). It also touches on identity crisis, the hierarchy system, power, greed. In 16 episodes, I think they did a good job :) 

Okay back to the topic at hand. Just yesterday, I had an influx of negative thoughts again. I think the devil always attacks in April/May period lol. I mean I have experience with these thoughts before, so it did not affect me too badly. Just that I need to remind myself to stop comparing with others and also to focus on what God has given me. I feel very blessed to have many supportive people around, and I am also comfortable to be alone. In some way, people do not really 'bother' me or are interested in my life unless I find them (I guess, its an issue with two sides). On one hand, I enjoy being left alone (my life is not very happening to begin with), on the other, I would also like to be 'noticed' or involved. That is also why I do an IG cleanse every now and then. Cause seeing what people post on IG actually affects me. Especially people whom I care about haha. So I will just log off. I think it really helps. 

I'm learning to enjoy being a wallflower, and have people coming to me because they enjoy being with me. 

I may not be cut out for many things or have many skill sets, or have many interests and probably will not make the list of people whom one will ask to go out, and maybe when I say something it gets lost in the crowd or someone else can just take over etc. But I guess, that is just me haha. And I'm used to that. I always tell myself that I am not alone, and that God is with me. He always is and always will be. 

All right! Its labour day holiday tmr! hope that I will be able to wake up to go hike with my colleagues and clock in those steps.

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