Start of Q2

 Supposed to start Q2 with my beloved peeps from LCG today but the flu bug got to me. 

Sometimes I wonder... where did i catch the bug from??? I was fine on tuesday (okay, the sneezing started then, but then i was all right). nose started leaking like nobody's business at work yesterday. it was crazy. definitely been a while since the nose tap was switched on. 

Age has been catching up on me. I used to be able to recover in a record time of 1 day. pop a pill, sleep and the next day, i'm ready to go. Unfortunately, I am unable to do so now. Woke up feeling like a truck just ran over me.

Appts for today and tmr need to be cancelled. Visit to the doctor made. basically I already know what medication the doctor is going to give me (i also took the same medicine last night). 

Just bummer about missing LCG. as usual. FOMO is one thing, but its really part of the momentum and thursday is usually the longest day, so it is great to unwind with a group of like-minded people, in the presence of God. oh wells. 

Anyways, I will be starting my Q2 goal today!

The first goal is to continue blogging. I might go back to 'lifestyle' blogging but would also want to end it in a more reflective mode. the second goal which i set for myself is to sleep at 10.30pm on weekdays. and 11.30pm on weekends. More leeway on weekends as I can wake up later. 

I really need 8 hours of sleep, but 9.30pm... is really pushing it. On somedays, I barely get home by that time. Still thinking of a way to account for this. Hence brought it up to Nic to share with the rest of the cell to see if there can be some form of accountability. 

One moment of growth that I would like to share here is that I met Weilin last tuesday. It was a real struggle that morning. Firstly, I just came back from a 4-day long break, thanks to good Friday and HBL on Monday. The inertia to go to work was very strong. In addition, I am getting tired of my job. Like lost my direction, not sure where this is going At the same time, also a bit scared, as I know that my Vp wants me to grow professionally and he is pushing me for some changes albeit I just started out. So that stress really makes me feel like escaping. But interestingly, that morning, as I felt my spirit very restless, I told God to give me fresh manna, to help me to see things the way He sees it. To make me fall in love with my job all over again. I know that I am where I am supposed to be in this season (plus I am bonded), so I really needed God to give me a refresh in my thinking. Was sharing this with Weilin when I met her for dinner and I wouldn't have made this pray if it was the old me. The old me will just ask God for help and like give me a way out lol. or strength to get through the day. I really thank God that I have matured in the way I think (maybe just a little) and at least I am not escaping from little issues that creep up in my life. I thank God for the environment that I am in, it is nurturing and give me space. So let me strive to do my best. 

For now, let me rest and recharge. Hopefully sleeping at 10.30pm will help me in terms of my physical health and this will be beneficial to my mental and spiritual health.

on a side note, though I cannot be with my LCG to celebrate Chloe's birthday: 

Blessed Birthday in advance Chloe! <3 you are greatly loved by God and everyone around us! 

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